- I walked at water's edge this morning
- as if in a trance, aware of my
surroundings only by the familiarity of the exercise.
- Before today, these early morning sojourns
- served to prepare me for
another day's adventure.
- Because you trusted enough
- to share a bit of yourself with me, every fiber
of my soul became acutely alert to nature's wonders.
- The shadow of indifference
- was lifted by your gift, and I was now able
to see life's sparkle through your eyes.
- My senses are muffled today, however:
- The symphony of the churning waves
- and the chorus of hungry,
eager birds fail to sound reveille in my ears.
- The damp sand makes no record of my visit,
- ignoring the passage
of my footsteps.
- Today, I cannot marvel at the seashells
- and small rocks as they
are bathed in the sunrise.
- Images of childhood pleasures
- fail to materialize with the thick
smell of low tide.
- The salty mix of fog and sea spray
- causes no virtuous sting as it
washes over my new wounds.
- I disappointed you, and I ache inside and out.
- Last night, I overstepped the boundaries
- that you so carefully had
created to protect the frailty of your world.
- The trust you cautiously offered up to me
- was shaken by my thoughtlessness.
- I wish I could erase everything
- and coax "the whole you" back into
my world again.
- But your shell will close
- in righteous fear, and my life will become as it
once was.
- However, I will never forget
- the light you brought into my life, and how
- I felt so complete through your guidance and friendship.
- The icy fingers of loneliness
- may envelope me again, but I will never
forget how I once saw the beauty of the seashore through your eyes.
6/27/99
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