A little money to fill his pockets was all the companionship Travis needed. No
drugs, hookers, or other bonuses could ever get him through the night. Just pure
green enjoyment.
Life on the streets gave hard-edged Travis this kind of love for the economy.
Nothing obscene, mind you, it was just the feeling of his pockets, fat with
dollar bills, that let him sleep like a baby on pills. Unfortunate for him, they
never saw obesity. Rarely even were they husky.
He tried anyway. Pick up a job here, mug an old lady there, just to get by and
wipe away the spider's web of insomnia. Still worse than his sleeping habits,
however, were his spending habits. He had bar tabs in at least five different
counties he would never see again, and he thanked his lack of a fixed address
for that.
Right now he was in a different situation. Hyper obesity reigned king in his
mind, and he wouldn't be going on a diet anytime soon. Money was all his to
enjoy, because of one simple factor: Travis had a paying job.
The bar was a dismal little place in the East Side of New York. Travis was
supposed to serve drinks while the usual tender was off doing god-knows-what
with god-knows-who. All of his past experience with alcohol had been rather one
sided, but hell, he'd seen Cocktail, he could fake it.
Usual customers didn't demand this kind of improvisation, anyway. Beer was the
word of the day. Draft, light, and others came straight from the keg, and they
emptied as fast as he tapped them. However taxing this was on him didn't matter.
He had cash.
"Excuse me?" Travis said, speaking also with his eyes, which brooded quizzically
over the dark hollows of his sockets.
"Absinthe," whispered the boy sitting at the counter. Clothes containing no
shortage of black were draped over his skinny frame, his eyes also holding dark
half moons, swirling purple and blue. Orange ringed the pupils of his dark brown
eyes. He couldn't have been over 16 years old.
"I'm sorry, I don't know what you're talking about." A wiry arm shot up and
pulled Travis to the counter, close to those dark, evil eyes.
"Where's the owner? Is Thomas here?" hissed the boy into Travis' face, his
breath smelling of rotten candy, formerly sweet, now bitter with the bacteria
that ate it along with the enamel of your teeth. Travis snorted in disgust and
attempted to turn away from this strange kid, but he was yanked back to
obedience.
"No, he left a while ago. I'm filling in for him."
"Look, just get rid of these guys and take me to the back room. I'll make it
worth your while." He rubbed two fingers together to make sure Travis knew what
he intended.
Travis weighed his options, then asked, "How much?"
"Whatever you desire." Travis raised an eyebrow in consideration.
White was the first sensation as Travis entered the room. White flowers adorned
the blackened walls, adding beauty to the dirt exterior that was lit only by a
harsh, bare light bulb hanging from the ceiling.
"What are those things?" Travis asked the boy.
"Wormwood flowers," he answered simply. Greasy strands of black hair hung in his
face, hiding his huge, piercing eyes. He brushed them away quickly with a pale,
thin arm. "They make absinthe out of the poisonous oil." Tendrils of diluted
hostility lashed through his breezy voice. Travis decided not to get too close.
The boy scratched away a patch of dust high up on the wall to reveal a small,
dully gleaming door. Inside was a combination lock, which he made quick use of.
"I copied the combination from Thomas. I have a photographic memory," he said to
no one in particular, tapping his forehead to punctuate. I wonder what else he's
got in that mind of his, Travis thought. He seemed mysterious and intelligent,
almost god-like. "Ah, here we are."
He tossed Travis a small bottle full of some dark liqueur. It smelled of the
boy's breath, like a dark, sweet death that asks you to come with it. And I'll
say yes, he thought, and found himself saying it out loud. The boy only nodded
knowingly.
Travis uncorked his bottle and took a tiny sip. Bitter alcohol invaded his
senses, but still that subtle, underlying taste that made it addictive. Organic,
he decided, like rotten vines and dirt and death. Another swig, and he was
hooked on the swirling alcoholic mist that filled his nose, and his eyes, and
his mouth, until there was nothing but his senses, twisting and writhing and
moaning with pleasure. This was truly the stuff of life, and of death, and the
worlds in between.
The boy's name was Ben, he found out later, after they had drunken bottles of
absinthe through the night. He was from an art school somewhere in New York, and
had found the bar while he was studying the early 1900's, to paint his mind on
the canvas, and become whole with it. It was a speakeasy during prohibition, and
this held even more risks because of it's secrets in the cellar where they sat
talking. Absinthe had been outlawed in every state, you see, but the previous
owner had become addicted to it's spirit, and kept producing it. The bar was
busted one night, and there was an ugly brawl. The officer on the bust was
killed, and he buried him down in the absinthe cellar. The wormwood flourished
every day from then on, and the absinthe was dark and smooth, impossible to
resist.
"So how did you find out about this stuff?" Travis asked, after taking a huge
swig.
"I'd have to show you sometime," Ben answered, smiling and cocking an eyebrow.
They were long gone by the time Thomas stumbled back to his bar, at three
o'clock in the morning, clutching his stomach. Days later he would be dead, and
the wormwood flowers would grow from his unmoving corpse. Now, however, he was
still and silent.
"Do you have a place to sleep?" Ben asked Travis when they left the bar.
"No. Why do you?" Travis asked, wondering how this kid could possibly know that
he felt sick and needed some rest for once this week.
"I never sleep. You're tired though. I have an apartment."
Travis raked a hand through his spiky hair. "Sounds fine to me." Anything
sounded fine then.
Ben's apartment turned out to be more than Travis bargained for.
The building was charred with black sear marks, ash, and dirt. The top was
missing, airing out the scar. Nobody had lived there for ages. You live here?
"I'm squatting," Ben answered, seeming to read Travis' mind.
They entered into a lobby owned by the rats, a place where no intelligent human
wanted to live. Heavy breathing emanated from under a chair to Travis' left, but
he didn't look. He would rather live.
Green vines tangled around Travis' feet as he trudged through the doorway into
Ben's apartment. The walls were swathed in them, dark green and reaching,
straining towards Travis. The cloying smell made Travis want to cough, but it
was good, so he breathed it in and forgot to exhale. Ben pointed to a rather
soft section of the spongy interior, and Travis lay gratefully down. Quickly, he
drifted off to sleep, among the vines that smelled and tasted of absinthe.
His sleep was an untroubled one, filled with dreams of a painter, with blind
eyes rolled in the back of his head, and Travis all at once understood how Ben
thought, and how he knew so much.
Images flooded his senses, his smell first, as he sniffed the thick scent of
wormwood, and tasted it's bitter scent in the air. Finally, his eyes opened
slowly, greeting Ben's strangely soothing eyes that massaged his mind. They
turned away, allowing the pain to shoot back through his mind.
"Oh my god, my head," was the first thing uttered from Travis' lips, and he dug
the heels of his hands into his skull.
"Did you sleep well?" Ben asked as he handed Travis a bottle of some clear
liquid. Thankfully, it turned out not to be the dark liqueur that had taken over
his body with obsession, and he slugged it down. It had a slightly malty,
slightly bitter taste, but it cleared his hangover right up.
"Yeah. Dreamed too."
"So now you know," Ben said reluctantly, turning away from Travis with a
slightly saddened tone.
"How do you do it anyway?" asked Travis, wiping back a puffy tuft of hair as he
sat up.
"My addiction is the souls of the dead, the rot and decay, and the sweat
numbness that follows. I get that in many things. Cannibalism, absinthe; even
those roots you slept on last night contain rotting flesh. They grew from it."
Travis managed to hold back his disgust. He had found solace in the spirits of
absinthe last night.
"But how could you eat dead flesh?"
"You don't know what it's like," Ben answered, swinging around, protective now.
"The manic depression, the ennui, everything that happens, I have no escape. Not
even painting will release me, for I can not achieve true art unless through the
souls of others. I'm nothing without the dead."
Travis nodded, understanding more than he ever imagined he could. Of course, he
had never imagined drinking of rot and decay, born from the bodies of the dead.
But hey, with his luck, that was the best thing that could happen. At least he
had money.
Ben sat down, his knees in the air, arms wrapped around them, face down, and
began to cry.
"Where's Thomas?" Ben asked later, after sauntering into the bar past eleven
o'clock. Red, irritated skin hung around his eyes, but the dark shadows remained
there.
"I don't know. He hasn't shown up all day." Ben pantomimed a swear, and pounded
his fist into the table.
"I needed to talk to him. Oh well, not much use now," Ben answered. A tentative
smile flickered at the corner of his mouth. "You want to go have a drink?"
Travis shrugged and nodded. There was nobody left in the bar, so it wouldn't be
too hard to close up.
They crept down to the cellar slowly, taking great care not to kick up much dust
with their shoes. This time neither reached for the chain to turn on the lights.
They wouldn't need them.
Ben went through the formalities, and gave a bottle to Travis. This time it had
the same clotted scent of Ben's vines, and the liquid was thick and syrupy. It
had the fresh taste of sweet, cool death.
Tonight they spoke urgently of places the must go sometime in their life, of
things they must do. Ben had to go everywhere, do everything. Travis said he
would rather stay in the same place the rest of his life. But that was the old
Travis. The new Travis was an integral part of Ben now, he knew him better than
himself. Travis knew of the abuse at an early age, Ben's escape to drugs,
Ben's close call with death at the hands of the cold, chrome car on a rainy
night, the night he discovered how sweet death was. This new Travis wanted all
the things Ben wanted. There was naught but a shred of him left.
And so they continued for days and days, which turned into months.
Travis awoke one day without the comforting breath of Ben's lungs across the
room, ready to tell him about his newest masterpiece. He looked over sleepily in
the general direction of the easel that he used, and saw Ben curled in a fetal
position. Sleep had finally taken him after all this time.
Small petals surrounded his tiny body, indicating a wormwood overdose. That
night Travis drank alone. The absinthe was dark and sweet, like a fountain of
honey and blood. It intensified with each death that it could absorb. That night
it was pulsing with dead energy, and the rot of the grave.
Afterward, he came back to the apartment they had shared for two years, and saw
nothing but the vines that had dominated the apartment for so long. Ben had
become them, become the dark, leafy branches that Travis intertwined with his
fingers at night. He knelt next to his friend's final resting-place, and threw
his wallet away.
His last drifting thoughts disappeared into the night, dark and syrupy like the
cold, inviting grip of death.
Here's something that'll really get you through the night.